hissychick » Infertility investigations

27 January 2004

hissychick — Tue, 27 Jan 2004 10:49:29 +0000

I haven’t written in so long….and even now the news isn’t good. DH and I went to the IVF clinic today to discuss our test results and treatment options. To cut a long story short, DH has a sperm antibody level of 80% and our only hope now is ICSI. We will start treatment in about three weeks. I just don’t know what to think. Our ectopic angel was a miracle, for us to be able to conceive agian naturally would take a miracle. Why wasn’t DH’s antibody levels tested much earlier than this? It’s not fair.

9 August 2003

hissychick — Sat, 09 Aug 2003 10:43:45 +0000

I survived my surgery. Have to admit I wasn’t that brave and cried the whole time until they knocked me out. But the news is good- my left tube is clear! I only had a couple of adhesions which have been fixed up. But there are no blockages, no endo and my ovaries look good I cannot explain the relief of waking up to not much pain. No oxygen for twenty four hours, no drainage tubes, no agony. I now have another frame of reference when it comes to operations IYKWIM Here’s a wierd thing for you though. Apparently I had a corpus leuteum on my right ovary that looked like i o’ed two weeks ago which was when I had my period. It looks like I oed twice this cycle! Go figure…anyway next cycle I am chucking out OPKs, temping, the lot and shagging for Australia. I’ve gotta catch one of these eggs sometime surely Today is the anniversary of my ectopic surgery and you know what? I feel hopeful about the future. It may take some time, but there’s a good chance that DH and I will fall pg and it will be a normal uterine pg, especially now that I can stop worrying about what’s happening with my remaining tube. DH is such a sweetheart. Yesterday he bought me a present and when I opened it up it was a beautiful romper suit, bib and baby slippers. I said to him that I’d always wanted to start buying some beautiful things to put away but I’d always felt too superstitious. You know what he said? He reckons that we should at least have a few things so a little one knows that we’re waiting for them What a darling darling man… Anyway I better get back to resting this sore tum of mine. Here’s to you, future bubs. I know you’re getting closer with each day and I cannot wait until we meet. And thank you little one, for the time you spent with me and the strength you helped me discover. I will never forget you, you will always be in my heart.

20 July 2003

hissychick — Sun, 20 Jul 2003 10:42:48 +0000

Wish I could stop replaying the events of last year over and over in my head. Wish I didn’t have to go through with a laproscopy the day before the anniversary of my ectopic pregnancy when I don’t know what the outcome will be. Wish I didn’t want a baby so much that sometimes I think I am going to lose the plot.

12 July 2003

hissychick — Sat, 12 Jul 2003 10:40:09 +0000

Well I am 5DPO after Oing on CD15. So much better after my last stupid cycle. My “pregmaginary” symptms thus far are sore boobs. The tiredness I am feeling is more likley to be due to the horrendous head cold I have than anything else. Damn cold- hope it doesn’t ruin our chances. I have not taken anything for it but have kept an eye on my temp- if it goes up I may risk some panadol. I have also taken some horseradish and garlic but only after checking that it was OK… Oh yeah- I feel a bit guilty but I did have a light beer last night. And a voltaren a couple of days ago (again after checking) because I currently have a bit of a neck/shoulder/left arm problem which means i should get off the computer shortly. Ahhh listen to my paranoia. Plenty of chicks get pg while taking medication and/or having a few benders. I hate them LOL The new job is going OK- although I am on a steep learning curve. I have tried to keep my stress to more manageable levels so here’s hoping… I really really really hope we get a BFP this month. We have just waited so long and been through enough. Future baby we want you so much! I could do without the surgery if possible given that it will be almost a year to the day of my ectopic surgery- and another painful anniversary to suffer through without a pg to ease the pain. I know whatever will be will be. I just hope that there is some justice…and that a little soul is winging its way to a mummy and daddy who will welcome them with such grateful open arms.

28 June 2003

hissychick — Sat, 28 Jun 2003 10:38:26 +0000

I’m feeling a bit too lazy to type a whole new diary entry after posting on the boards (even though it’s been ages since I’ve done a diary update) so here’s a cut and paste and edit job from a post: I am now on CD 6 after a stupid extra long 39 day cycle. I had the works, constipation, raging thrush that just hasn’t gone away yet and a lovely clotty AF including clots the size of a 20c piece. Lovely. Last month I was just a stress ball so I guess that didn’t help. To be honest I am still a bit stressed as i am starting a new job on Monday (same place, different section). I just wish things could be a bit calm so I can relax with TTC! I went to the gynaecologist on Thursday and to cut a long story short we are now into investigation mode. I have to have the usual blood tests, and DH has to have the SA (he is excited about being allowed to look at porn the silly duffer), and then on August 8 I have to have a lap and dye. So I have come full circle, back in hospital almost a year to the day of my EP. I am scared but feeling a bit more positive now that the doctors are actually starting to look at my fertility. The gyn agreed with me that I shouldn’t have to go through a year of TTC only to potentially discover that my remaining tube is blocked and that we need IVF. In a wierd way I think that my tube is OK. I just couldn’t handle TTC any longer without knowing. So now I can just relax and TTC this cycle- if I get pg that’s great but if I don’t we’ll be looking into why it hasn’t happened so far. I really hope we don’t have to go down the IVF path- but we will if necessary. Not going to think about that at this stage. It’s my turn for a BFP and a normal pregnancy dammit!!!!!!!