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By hissychick | January 19, 2009
Forgive me internets, for not being able to pen a witty post right now. For tomorrow is A’s first day back at daycare for the year, and E’s first day ever.
I know my big almost four year old will settle back in with a minimum of fuss, her desire to play with her friends outweighing her reservations at being there without Mummy or Daddy (provided you don’t remind her that I will actually be at work in two weeks’ time, a whole other story..).
I am fretting big time for my baby girl. I will state upfront that I am not a fan of daycare for under two year olds, yet here I am about to leave my barely nineteen month old for two very long days each week. Never mind the fact that she can already speak in many three and some four word sentences, and is a very outgoing, sociable and confident child. This is an act of betrayal.
I am about to shake those secure foundations, walk away knowing full well the tears and separation anxiety this will cause, the pain and confusion at nap time when my littlest one will be put to bed by someone other than me for the very first time and without her beloved boobie. That I will be away from her and her sister for at least eleven hours at a time.
What the fuck am I doing?
Topics: WWM 09, moody blues | 5 Comments »
As someone who has done what you don’t approve of not once, but will be three times by the end of this year I am not the one to be giving advice. But fuck it – if you’ve chosen your care providers as well as I have then you’re not limiting your children, but widening their circle of people who love and care for them. Something that being isolated as a SAHM in a world completely not geared for them can’t always do.
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Posted by: Jenn on January 20th, 2009 at 9:41 pmOh, I know this is so so hard… but out of such difficulties some good things will come through.
Just hang in there.
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Posted by: Moomykin on January 21st, 2009 at 3:18 amI am sure you put in as much care and thought in choosing the daycare and she will be alright there.
And it is only 2 days after all….
But I know the feeling….
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Posted by: Ann on January 21st, 2009 at 1:19 pmThanks Kathie and Ann.
Jenn I absolutely agree with you about widening the circle of care and the stimulation provided by a child centred yes environment as positive aspects of the daycare experience. The centre that E is attending has the most fabulous nursery environment and the most fantastic dedicated long term staff. Once she adjusts she will love it and will thrive there.
So please don’t be offended by my under 2 comment, and also note that I didn’t say that I didn’t approve, rather that I am not a fan in general. This purely relates to my concerns about children having sufficient language to convey their needs to busy staff (not a problem in a higher staff ratio, excellent carer environment, which unfortunately is not always the norm) and the length of time that a child is in care- a major concern for us given our horrific commute and no alternative decent local opportunities. Most adults don’t work an eleven hour day, and yet we expect our kids to cope.
Finidng balance is so hard…
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Posted by: hissychick on January 21st, 2009 at 2:36 pmAt least their long day includes a nap – why can’t my workplace be progessive like that!!
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Posted by: Jenn on January 21st, 2009 at 7:51 pm