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18 April 2005
By hissychick | April 18, 2005
11 weeks 1 day old My darling A, how you continue to grow and develop and thrive to the amazement and joy of your Dad and I. Your smile is so infectious, the coos and shrieks of excitement are increasing, as is your awareness of yourself and the world. You love looking in the mirror at yourself, and it seems like you will roll anytime (even though you are a big sook about tummy time). And it can’t be too long before you make the connection that your arms are attached to your body, given the amount of fist sucking you do! You love bathtime with Dad too. Your Mum thinks she might slowly be turning the corner on this postnatal anxiety type state. She has surrendered to the fact that you may keep asking for night time room service for quite some time yet, and is starting to try and loosen up about going out in public with you without suffering from a panic attack. And that your cries don’t mean that she has done something wrong, only that you are communicating a need We will get there sweetie. Anyway, on a lighter note, here is a run down of last night’s middle of the night feed: 2:30am- Awake to A’s cries on the monitor. Roll over, sigh at the thought that tonight is not the night for sleeping through, and heave body out of bed.
2:31am- Get A up, try to avoid eye contact (so hard when she is all smiles and totally adorable) and put her to the boob. Close eyes and attempt to stay half asleep.
2:41am- Hey, this half asleep state is working.
2:42 am- Wait, how come my top is all wet and smelling of milk? Oh damn it, forgot to put breast pad in bra. Oh well, at least A is dry. I’ll just change before I go back to bed.
2:44am- Hmm, little miss is fussing. Must have finished that boob. Righto, time for a burb and the other side.
2:50 am- Wow, she is still wriggling around a lot. It can’t be a burp because she just let out a beauty. Hang on a minute, has she done a poo recently?
2:52am- <> Ohhh boy, I can feel something on A’s back. Oh bollocks, there is poo everywhere up her back.
2:53 am - Silently curse manufacturers of Huggies as I attempt to find clean clothes, and something to clean A up with in the dark. She’s not even 6kg and the nappies are supposed to fit up to 8kg so why couldn’t it contain a backfire? 2:54am-3am- Attempt operation clean up without making A cry, therefore waking her Dad up. I don’t believe it, it’s the first time I’ve been able to change her outfit without a grizzle! Excellent, now to just quickly finish the feed and get back to bed.
3:15am- Oh come on, aren’t you finished yet?!
3:30am- Finally done, baby wrapped and about to be put into bed. Wait, one final burp…
3:33am- Enter bathroom to strip off top which is now not only milk stained, but covered in baby sick. 3:35am- Back in bed, listening out to see if A will settle. Yes, good girl! Now back to sleep for me
4:35am- I said, back to sleep for me.
5:45am- Back to slee..
6am- Alarm goes off so that James can get up and go to Canberra. Sigh….
It’s a good thing you are adorable and alseep right now my precious daughter 
Topics: Anxiety/PND, I'm a Mum, Preblog diary |
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