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1 January 2005

By hissychick | January 1, 2005

34 weeks 1 day Happy New Year little one! Can’t believe that I can actually say that not only am I having my baby this year…but next month (eek!). The good news is that at last week’s appointment my BP was on the way down, my weight was stable and there was no protein in my urine. Here’s hoping my BP is just as well behaved at this week’s appointment. The not so good news is that I have been in such a heightened state of anxiety and moodiness that some days I think I am going to lose the plot. Poor DH, I seem to alternate between hating his guts and then feeling really guilty that I am having such rage filled thoughts about the man i love. I think it’s really started to hit me that this birth gig is not too far away, and to avoid thinking about how frightened i am about that side of things (and the even deeper fear that i will be a crap mother) I have started to fixate on the nursery, and the fact that it seems like the whole house is a shambles. Oh well little one, I will take a deep breath and try and relax for your sake. You are certainly getting bigger, you give me the wierdest kicks in the wierdest places at times, and I do find it rather amusing that you seem determined to squash yourself into the right half of my tum when you also have plenty of room on the left. Makes for a wierd bump at times. Bleurgh. Too hot today. Time to take you and yor Daddy off to a nice air conditioned cinema for a couple of hours.

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