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3 December 2004

By hissychick | December 3, 2004

30 WEEKS!!!! Dance of joy, you seem to be so healthy and normal so far my little one. Please stay that way …yes, even if you squirm and kick so much in the middle of the night that I can hardly sleep, and seem to get the hiccups at least once a day…that is so cute by the way. Well…the nesting instinct has well and truly kicked in, last weekend DH, my Mum, Dad and I painted the nursery, and rearranged lots of furniture, this morning I was busily cleaning windows, putting up curtains and just generally turning the junk room/study into a study/guest room and MIL has been working away on the nursery curtains. It’s a good thing that it’s been a bit cooler otherwise I would be frustrated with not being able to do any other than retain fluid! Speaking of retianing things, I seem to have grown enormous overnight…from pregnant to HEAVILY pregnant. Which is fine, so far so good (er…except for the large weight gain between 26 and 28 weeks)…I just wish people would stop telling me so! Come on, when you are six foot tall and waddling around like a duck, don’t you think I’ve already noticed? It especially doesn’t help when they mutter things about having a large baby…DH already teases me that our daughter is going to have a giant head (eek!). I think, if anything, she is going to be one looong baby, if her movements are anything to go by. It’s kind of disconcerting to feel a kick or punch down low followed by one up near my ribs, because i have a long torso (and yes, i was a long baby too..). The work thing. Well, I am finishing up on Christmas Eve. PLlus after extensive negotiation, whilst I can’t hurry the recruitment process I have managed to get a contract renewal sufficient enough to entitle me to 9 weeks paid maternity leave just like everyone else! Whilst I am relieved to be getting rid of the four hours a day commute, very happy about the paid leave and excited about being on the home stretch to my meeting with my long awaited little one, I am also completely freaked out. About what this means in terms of my career, and losing my independent income and also losing the social interaction. And, I don’t know, reality setting in about becoming a Mum. Yes I am scared of the birth, but its the rest of the my life thing after that that has my head in a spin at times! I guess this is the reason my mood keeps seesawing and I find myself becoming more emotional… ..that and the lack of sleep (it’s true, it does become an effort to try and get comfy and stay comfy), the job uncertainty (will I have to do an interview before I go, or worse still, within weeks of the birth)..and that DH will be away in Canberra all week for work. It’s funny how being up the duff makes you a bit more ‘dependent’ and vulnerable…even more so now because that fear of going into labour alone is at the back of my mind. Nope…push that aside. So far so good, and with my next OB checkup on Monday I hope that remains the case. Love you so much, my little darling girl, not that lomg to go now until we meet :)

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