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13 September 2004

By hissychick | September 13, 2004

18 weeks 2 days I think I must be the world’s slackest mum to be when it comes to keeping a diary and up to date with the discussion boards…I haven’t written anything anywhere on EB for absolutely ages. I’ve been finding it hard enough just keeping up with RL, even though my energy levels are so much better than they were in the first trimester. Well I had my OB appointment this morning and all is well, Bubs heratbeat was around the 140 bpm mark, my blood pressure was 120/70 (amazing given the stress i was feeling) and my fundal height is right on dates. The only hitch is that I have put on about 2.4kg since last visit instead of about 2kg…don’t know why, this made me feel really bad being the prefectionist that I am. After some much needed ressurance from Lucy and my Mum I’ve decided it doesn’t matter as long as both bubs and i are healthy and happy. In fact, once i’ve done the glucose test, if i get the all clear i think i am going to refuse the weigh ins unless abslutely necessary. Women face enough crap about their weight during their lives, why should i be subjected to unnecessary stress if i am not textbook average? Enough of that crap, that’s just the pregnancy hormones talking. My energy levels might be back but he moodiness just hasn’t gone away..i don’t feel like posting until i am feeling a bit chirpier. Hopefully next week’s scan will do the trick…yes my little bellybean, we are going to try and find out whether you are a girl or a boy… I think i am starting to feel movements. I have been feeling some bubbly type sensations at night over the last couple of weeks but then i wonder if it’s just gas! But today, and a couple of days ago I have had these definite tummy flutters/twitches. Oh i hope this is really it, feeling bubs move for certain would take a lot of pressure off my mind (note to doctors et al- making a woman who has a hard won pregnancy wait for four weeks between opportunities to confirm that the baby is alive is not good for her mental health). Hmmm I think i will leave it on that note for now. Have been spending a lot of time lately contemplating birth, whether I’ll be a good mother, what is going to happen career wise when i should just be enjoying my little ‘bean. One thing i cannot wait for is less time spent on self analysis and so much more on looking after and loving bubs. Love you my little one, keep growing safely and strongly.

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