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22 August 2004

By hissychick | August 22, 2004

15 weeks 1 day Oh my little belyybean, what a slack mummy I have been, not keeping this diary updated… Well let’s see, where to begin. Your NT scan came back with a risk factor of 1 in 6300, which is about as low as you can get so your daddy and i were very thrilled (although Mummy did have a herat attack when yo measured two days behind dates- it took a lot of reassurrance from the docs and family and friends before I stopped panicking so much about that one). As we rolled on towards 14 weeks the extreme fatigue and nausea fog started to lift, and physically it has been reasonable smooth sailing, with the exception of a bout of insomnia (was that brought on by my fear that I may have damaged your hearing by going out on a couple of site visits where I had to wear ear plugs?) and only a bit of nausea now and then. Our 14 week OB checkup was all normal, we had a fill in OB as our doc is on holidays. He was lovely and reassurring, although your Dad and I laughed when he accidentally popped the button off my trousers when he did the fundal exam! Still didn’t get to hear your heartbeat, but we did hear movements and the blood swishing through to the placenta. We also got a gold star for not putting on too much weight, but I hate to think how long that is going to last! And now to the last few days…well, my belly is starting to pop out a bit, so this pregnancy is finally starting to seem real. I’m still scared, I always seem to have some worries in the back of my mind (the hearing thing I mentioned earlier, listeria, whether the stress hormones I am secreting are harming you my little bubs)…but i am also starting to feel some real hope now that we are in the second trimester. Hope enough to actually start reading about active birth in preparation for next Feb (and to start to be terrified at the prospect of giving birth, but that’s another story) And…another milestone. With some help from Mum I bought some maternity clothes today. A lovely functional black skirt and gauzy green/cream top by Pea in a pod, and a beautiful black dress to wear to some upcoming weddings..sort of empire line with a tie back, it makes me feel rather feminine! I also bought a plain t-shirt which was on sale for only $6.50, it’s a bit big now but is worth putting away in the closet. It’s a wierd exeperience doing somthing that not that long ago I thought I might not ever have the chance to do. It’s also strange to loook down and see a growing tummy…it almost feels sometimes like all this is happening to someone else…. Well I best go and do some back exercises. I forgot to mention earlier but I’ve had a few issues with my sacroiliac joints, the left one of which I hurt after rolling over in bed the other night (i have an old back injury related to this area of my back), and have had lower back, some neck/headaches and jaw pain as a result. I guess it’s due to the relaxin hormone, so I had better try and strengthen my abdominals instead of trying to poke my tummy out. I hope I don’t sound like I am whinging, because I would not change a damn thing. I am just so thankful to be pregnant..these physical pains are nothing compared to the torture that is infertility and its treatment. I’ve been thinking a lot lately about those who are dealing with this type of agony and heartache and how unfair this is, how my own pregnancy could be exacerbating this pain for others….I wish there was justice in this world…… Anyway i’d best sign off, it’s almost dinnertime. It might be another little while between updates as we’re off to Melb at the end of the week for a week’s holiday. DH and I are so looking forward to a bit of a break from work, a chance to catch up with his family, and a chance to go out with friends. Keep safe and keep growing strongly my little one. I love you so much, you are such a blessing and I am thankful for every day that you have been with me. Your daddy and I have everything crossed that you will stay with us because we can’t wait to meet you next February.

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