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31 July 2004

By hissychick | July 31, 2004

12 weeks YES! So happy to have reached this mark :) Just to finish off the update that I started the other day…after seeing the OB I had mixed feelings, I wasn’t used to the everything is normal low key approach after everything it has taken to get this far….. And as if right on cue, the day after my appointment I started spotting brown stuff. Again. I rang the OB and when he called back (on my mobile, had to rush to a meeting room, sometimes i really hate open plan offices) I told him what was going on and how nervous I was and he was very reassurring. I felt much better about my choice of doc let me tell you. He told me to go and get a scan in the next day or so if the spotting didn’t stop and to just use my NT scan referral (i had to work for that one, he doesn’t believe in them at all, so deciding to make an appointmnet or not was another source of anguish for me). He told me that it was perefectly natural to feel so nervous given my history. The spotting had stopped by the next day so I started to feel calm…. …and then at 11 weeks 2 days (last Monday) it started again, only this time it was red. This time I really went into a panic so my DH organised for me to get a scan that day and to work from home to take my mind off things. That afternoon we went for the scan…and there was a beautiful healthy bubs there. The cause of the spotting remains a mystery, but at least it wasn’t coming from the placenta. It was too early to do the nuchal measurement, but at that stage it was looking thin so everything is looking good for this week’s NT scan (yes I decided to have one after all). So for now we are back to a sort of calm, not the naive confidence of someone who just assumes all is alright (because they have never been in the situation where things have gone wrong), but rather I keep telling myself that so far so good, whilst i don’t have control over the outcome the odds do appear to be in my favour for a good outcome (ie, a healthy bubs). The nausea has pretty much gone, I just wish the tiredness would as well. Insomnia seems to have kicked in, and I am starting to look a bit thick around the waist (and i really feel it too). Looking forward to the bump, but not the awkward stage beforehand! Keep growing safe and strong my little one.

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