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20 June 2004
By hissychick | June 20, 2004
6 weeks 1 day. Not much to report, there has mainly just been seesawing emotions, tiredness, and a disgusting wretching habit when I am hungry/smell virtually anything in the last couple of days. At other times I feel like I am bursting with energy, especially after I go for a brisk walk. Wish my boobs would start hurting though. Did one of my reassurrance HPTs yesterday and wouldn’t you know it, the bloody thing didn’t work. No control line, nothing, zip, zilch, nada. What a waste of $$. Anyway, I found one of those cheapo HPTs in the bathroom cupboard and used it this morning. That lovely second line came up straight away. I have another three left, that’s one per week until my 9 weeks 4 day scan at the IVF clinic. Hopefully I will be able to break the habit after that…yeah, right. Have to go away for a work planning session this week. It’s an overnighter and I am not looking forward to it at all. I am going to have to carry a stash of food and surreptitously throw out any alcohol offered to me. Not to mention try and steer clear of all the smokers. That’s if I can stay awake long enough in the first place. This whole keeping things quiet and under control in the first semester gig is going to get interesting. I haven’t been on the boards for the last few days. It’s a bit hard to know where I fit in. It’s a culture shock to go from the AC and long term TTCer threads and into a ‘normal’ pregnancy thread, that’s for sure. I guess I will adapt, there are a few AC girls in there but it is wierd to be back with people who have TTCed and conceived both naturally and quickly. It’s also strange to not always feel very welcome back in the other boards..and so very rightly so..but still a bit disconcerting. I guess it’s because I had just become so used to being a cynical world weary TTCer watching other people conceive that I am not sure how to handle this new role of pregnant chick…after so much bad luck I just don’t know how to handle the fact that I have gotten lucky. I know I feel very cautious though, almost as if the moment I start to believe that it might be true it will be snatched away from me. Hooray for battle scars.
Topics: I'm pregnant, Infertile thoughts, Preblog diary |
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