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19 May 2003

By hissychick | May 19, 2003

BLah- time to update seeing as i have the chance. I am sick today and will head off to the doctor’s shortly. I think its a virus as I’m all achey headachey and vague. Just need to double check because our admin officer at work was in hospital last week for viral meningitis poor thing. So where were we? CD4 of another new cycle. I am starting to feel resigned to the whole process, as in I don’t think this is going to happen very quickly. That’s the really nasty sting about ectopics- just when you have started to make peace with the fact that you lost a baby, part of your body and very nearly your life you then have to face up to the fact that you have a big decline in fertility and an increased chance of another ep. Life just isn’t fair folks. Anyhow I will start charting again when I feel better as my temp is a bit up because I am sick which makes it hard to determine a pre O pattern. This month DH and I want to make it a bit more fun. Sure there are a couple of baby making days in there but why put the pressure on? Yeah I know I say that now lol Seriously, DH doesn’t want to feel like a sperm bank and I don’t want to get in the vicious cycle of feeling so uptight and then having very average BD experiences IYKWIM This cycle last year was the one where I got pg and that is playing on my mind. I would like to be able to have a bit more of a positive experience this time. Stop thinking Em- you don’t need the pressure arrrrggghhh! This month I will try and organise an u/s and a few other tests just to make sure the remaining plumbing is doing OK. I’m pretty sure it is, given that I have a relatively regular 30-31 day cycle nowdays but I need that peace of mind. I’m off now- too buggered to type anything else.

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