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18 January 2003

By hissychick | January 18, 2003

Well I am not pregnant this cycle, and to be honest I am relieved. I don’t know what I want anymore, so now is not the time to be TTC as it is unfair on any potential baby, DH or me. Life is just so confusing sometimes. All I know is that I am only 26 and that maybe I was rushing into the whole start a family thing. Some days I even think I rushed into marriage when I should have taken a step back and taken more time before taking the plunge. Don’t get me wrong- I love DH- but we really need to work on communication. How do you tell your husband that you just want to have some fun and be a bit selfish? I mean, he’s 35 this year and had his twenties to enjoy…. I wish we had bloody well bought a unit in the inner west instead of moving into a family home way out here in the mountains. Its a beautiful area but it only amplifies the confusion that I am currently feeling. Maybe I should just throw myself into my career. I wish I knew what the purpose of life was, because some days I think its just one big random cosmic joke.

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